So a little more than a year on, I feel stuck. I don't seem to be able to move forward. I can't imagine being with another person. I want to be clear, I don't want her back. I just can't imagine being with anybody else.
Maybe I'm just to selfish to share my life with another person?
I can't wrap my head around how she has moved on so quickly, she says it wasn't planned and nothing happened before she told me she wanted to go, in just 6 weeks she threw away a thirteen year relationship and broke our family up, something she always told me she wanted.
She's been with him ever since and at my request not introduced him to our Son, she wants to do so soon, within the next couple of months.
I can honestly say I'm not ready. The thought of some other bloke being a father figure to my Son, makes me feel physically sick. I'm afraid that I may lose him. I'm afraid he will be confused.
I know I'm not the first person to go through something like this, it is the first time I've experience a situation like this and being the emotional person that I am, I find it really difficult.
I've sat here for a good 10 minutes trying to end this post and fittingly, I'm stuck.